Don’t know whether it’s the weather or what, but today I have the blues. Have been thinking back over the past few years and have decided that I haven’t liked them very much. I can’t remember the last time I felt happy. There have been the odd moments of course, but very fleeting…nothing on top of the world or contented though. To be honest I suppose I am lonely. I don’t want anything permanent but it would be nice to have someone special in my life..suppose I blew my chance of that years ago, stupid Jo!
Think that must be the trouble with getting older, you start looking back and regretting so many things and so many missed opportunities. All the thoughts get stuck in your head and go round and round and you can’t talk about them with anyone…it makes you feel so alone. Ah well, tomorrow is a different day so I hope it will be a bit better and that I will want to smile and not to cry!
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